Friday, October 29, 2010



I am wearing a pair of shoes
They are ugly shoes
Uncomfortable shoes
I hate my shoes

Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair
Some days my shoes hurt so bad I do not think I can take another step
Yet I continue to wear them
I get funny looks wearing these shoes

They are looks of sympathy
I can tell in other's eyes they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs
They never talk about my shoes
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable

To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them
But once you put them on you can never take them off
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes
There are many pairs in this world

Some women are like me and ache daily as they try to walk in them
Some have learned how to walk in them so that they don't hurt quite so much
Some women have worn these shoes so long that the days will go by before they think about how much they hurt

No woman deserves to wear these shoes
Yet because of these shoes I am a stronger woman
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything
They have made me who I am

I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who had lost a child

Author Unknown

Friday, October 15, 2010

October 15th .....An Angel Never Dies


Don't let them say I wasn't born
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave
I've loved you from the start

Although my body you can't hold
It doesn't mean I'm gone
This world was worthy, Not of me
God chose me to move on

I know the pain the drowns your soul
What you are forced to face
You have my word, I'll fill your arms
Someday we will embrace

You'll hear that it was meant to be
God doesn't make mistakes
But that won't soften your worst blow
Or make your heart not ache

I'm watching over all you do
Another child you'll bear
Believe me when I say to you
That I am always there

There will come a time, I promise you
When you will hold my hand
Stroke my face and kiss my lips
And then you'll understand

Although I've never breathed your air
Or gazed into your eyes
That doesn't mean I never was
An angel never dies

Author Unknown

In Memory of Taelyn Marie

Thursday, October 14, 2010

October 15th 2010...International baby and infant loss awareness day

This day acknowledges the loss of babies and infants around the world. Prior to Taelyn Marie I had never heard about this day....nor would I have wanted to. However, in the past 4 months I have come across a lot of information regarding infant & baby loss. It happens every day and everywhere. The sad part is half the time no one knows, and no one talks about it. This day is special to me and to my family because we think about Taelyn every minute of every day, and we DO NOT want anyone to forget about her. She was and still is a big part in our lives. We are very thankful that there is a day that others have made to remember that along with Taelyn, other babies are not here with us....and we need to think about the people who have suffered this loss.

At 7:00pm we will be lighting a candle in remembrance. Please do this if you know someone....or even if you don't to acknowledge our loss or losses.

To all of our little angels out there.....I will be thinking about you all and remembering our much you were loved and wanted and are missed.

In remembrance of Taelyn Marie Mary Catherine Peckford
Born Wednesday June 2nd 2010 at 6:34pm
Weighing in at 5 lbs 13 oz, 22 in long

You were beautiful
You are loved
You are missed
You were mine

Saturday, October 2, 2010

A Letter to Taelyn Marie

Its been 4 months today my sweet angel. 4 months since I walked into that ultrasound hoping for the best and expecting and receiving the worst. 4 months that you have been missed every second of every day of every week for 4 months. I still feel you around us. I know you play with Keirnan and visit him when he's in bed trying to go to sleep. Then all of a sudden he's wide awake and singing to himself, and having a full conversation with you. I know you love to play with his toys, and to listen to the music. I know you come around all the time. But we still miss not being able to hold you, and smell you, and care for you the way we had hoped for.

We had and still do have hopes for you. It may sound strange seeing as you are not physically around, but we still want the best for you and hope you get everything you want....even on the other side I guess.

I heard this song again recently....and thought of you and your brother.

We miss you Taelyn
and your little pouty mouth
your red hair
your long piano fingers
your teeny tiny wrists
your big hands
your delicate little feet
your long legs
your chipmunk cheeks
your button nose
your stubbornness which showed through during the pregnancy
your little bum
your constant hiccuping
we miss being able to hold you
and smell you
and rock you to sleep
and sing to you
and play with you
and be around you
but most of all you

Its been 4 months since you became an angel and grew your wings